{"id":3007,"date":"2020-11-15T08:28:20","date_gmt":"2020-11-15T13:28:20","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.homemaderavioli.com\/woodstock\/weblog\/?p=3007"},"modified":"2020-11-15T08:28:20","modified_gmt":"2020-11-15T13:28:20","slug":"writing-about-writing","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.homemaderavioli.com\/woodstock\/weblog\/2020\/11\/writing-about-writing\/","title":{"rendered":"Writing about writing"},"content":{"rendered":"

It’s been a busy weekend. I’ve been nurturing, and demoralizing, the fiction writer part of me at an “at home writing summit.”<\/p>\n

Nurturing because yes, it is great to be able to focus on fiction for a few minutes, to be free of the obligation to tell the story the way other people want me to, to have the chance to achieve the goals I want to achieve with the words I write.<\/p>\n

Demoralizing because I have so much work I have been neglecting since, well, a while. A long while.<\/p>\n

I’ve been a “member” at NaNoWriMo.org<\/a> since October 21, 2004. That was the year I wrote my first complete novel. I say complete because I started a novel in the late 1990s but never finished it. I have it around somewhere…digitally…maybe. That was several computers ago.<\/p>\n

I’ve won – meaning I wrote at least 50,000 words in 30 days between midnight November 1st and midnight December 1st<\/acronym> – six times. And every time has been the same.<\/p>\n

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This is 1\/3 of the spread my mother put out for our family cookie exchange last year. Yes, we are Italian.<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n

I usually shoot for a goal of 2,000 words per day, which is slightly over what the lovely folks at NaNoWriMo headquarters say you need to win<\/acronym>.<\/p>\n

That extra few words allowed me to ease into Thanksgiving, traditionally my favorite holiday despite it’s smallpox-infected blanket colonizing overtones.<\/p>\n

Part of this is because the November Holiday is crazy in my family, or at least it used to be. We’d start around 11:00 with a massive table of snacks. Then we’d move on to dinner. Then pie. So. much. pie.<\/p>\n

Between that schedule and the weird joy of the Macy’s Thanksgiving Day Parade<\/a>, which yes, they have found a way to do in “these trying times,” <waits while you take a shot>, there wasn’t a snowball’s chance in hell I’d be able to write anything on the actual Day of Eating.<\/p>\n

For the NaNoWriMo report cards I could dig up, I was always in the same place mentally at about the same time.<\/p>\n

2013, the year I wrote the sci-fi novel I’m now in draft 5 on, that place looked something like this:<\/p>\n

AM: I am shit. This book is shit. I have no idea where I am in my plot, and I think I’m going to be short. This is not good. PM: Slightly better. I’ve hit my 50% mark and I have a subplot I don’t really know what to do with.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n

By the way, in Draft 5, that sci-fi novel is about 30,000 words over what agents and publishers recommend for an unpublished author in that genre.<\/p>\n

In 2018, the year I overwrote an erotic lesbian romance novel by about 55,000 words, that place looked a little bit like this:<\/p>\n

Feel like a complete fucking phony today. Maybe because today’s scenes are emotionally hard and hit too close to home. Also, I’m not really sure where to go from here.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n

It’s only fitting that I get to the midpoint in my experimental blogging month that I torture myself with a whole day of good writing advice that my anxiety-oriented brain immediately absorbs and turns into this:<\/p>\n

You’ve been working on this book for 7 years. No one cares. And in the way the publishing climate is turning, your story doesn’t matter. You’re white. You’re over 50. Why are you bothering? And why do you call yourself a writer? You’re just a hack.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n

I’ve written 7,767 words, give or take some statistical issues with counting HTML tags, so far this month. But I’ve written every day. And that is what matters.<\/p>\n

I’m going to go pull my book apart now and see if I can make it like the 6 Million Dollar Man.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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