I am an extremely lucky person. I don’t mean lucky in that way that would allow you to send me to Vegas with your five grand and expect me to return you a hefty profit; that much is clear from the scant 45 minutes it took me to blow $100 at roulette last year (hell, I don’t even pay that much for a standard therapy “hour” in DC). More, I am lucky because of the people that I have in my life who love me.
These are people who wish nothing for me but joy, people for whom my discomfort brings an urge to help, to soothe, to aid. Not only am I lucky to have at least one person in my life who regards me in this way, but I am exponentially lucky to have several people in my life who, at the very least, think kindly of me.
- There is the friend who sent me a random hug via e-mail the other day simply because she felt like it.
- There is the friend who sent me a care package filled with words (and chocolate) because sometimes you need a care package when you least expect it.
- There are the former bosses and collegues who spoke highly and well of me and helped me cinch the new job I just accepted.
- There are the friends who have spent the most precious thing a person has and have encouraged my writing in many subtle and not-so-subtle ways.
- There is my family who, for all their faults and flaws, love me dearly and would in fact leave the house at 3am in the rain to pick me up at the bus station.
I could go on but when I think about it the sheer abundance makes me want to weep and sometimes actually causes me to do so.
I don’t know what I’ve done to deserve the expressions of friendship I’ve received lately so all I can do is say thank you in my own way, both to those people and to the universe in general.
I am an extremely lucky person.
All good things to all good people!
Really happy to hear about the new gig!
Exciting!
STB
You don’t know what you’ve done to deserve the ‘expressions of friendship’ you mention – the first thing is that people really don’t have to do anything, just being is enough. But then there’s what you in particular have done, and are doing with your ‘be-ing’ – and that’s a lot of good stuff that it’s easy for others to appreciate. So, not being total dummies, we do.
When you say you don’t know what you’ve done to deserve such a lovely support system, my first thought is that you’ve done a ton of caring and supportive things you don’t give yourself credit for.
After all, you only get back what you give out.
You are lucky and we are lucky to have the privilege to read your work and ideas.
I know you deserve those expressions of friendship for being there for others whether it was actively or passively. I am gald you enjoy those expressions and I hope you have many more of them in your future.
–Larin