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Why wasn’t Haiti important last Monday?

I think I need to have my head examined: I agreed with Bill O’Reilly today. Before we get to how there needs to be a little background.

While I am amazed and astonished by the donations that have rushed in to help the victims of Haiti’s recent earthquake – as of Friday, January 15, reports about the “text a donation” to the Red Cross campaign put the figure some where between $7M USD and $8M USD which doesn’t include the $2M USD that has poured into Wyclef Jean’s questionable charity or the donations by individual celebrities – I am also moved to ask a fundamental question about this sudden compassion for Haiti and its people: Where where was it on Monday before the earthquake?

On Monday, before Port-au-Prince collapsed in its entirety, Haiti was dismally poor with a population suffering the effects of decades of not just mismanagement but outright corruption. According to a 2005 USAID report, the average life expectancy in Haiti was 53 years-old. Literacy rates hovered between 48% and 52% and the average per-capita income was about $400 a year where income distribution left more than three quarters of the population living below the poverty line. Even though the report doesn’t say anything about it, food insecurity – which is a wonky way of saying not having any clue where your next meal is coming from or when – was probably frighteningly high.

Haiti was and is by all estimation the poorest country in the western hemisphere.

Stunning to think about isn’t it? Just imagine for a minute: for the U.S. in 2005 comparable figures would have meant 224,772,395 people living below the poverty line. And given that the poverty line is a bull shit number anyway – it’s calculated on the cost of feeding a family of four in 1966 for a year – that is an even more frightening statistic regardless of which country you apply it to.

And these stats are for Haiti after the country received $865M USD in aid from the U.S., Canada, Taiwan, the EU, and a World Bank/IMF credit in 2003. In 2004, more than $1B USD was pledged for two years for relief and development efforts in Haiti. Or, to quote Mr. O’Reilly:

TV talker Bill O’Reilly, for example, said he gives to a private charity that helps Haiti but has a dim view of government aid: “[T]he USA will once again pour millions into that country, much of which will be stolen. Once again, we will do more than anyone else on the planet, and one year from today, Haiti will be just as bad as it is right now.”

– “‘The earth shook to open people’s eyes’ to needy Haiti”, Joel Achenbach, The Washington Post, January 18, 2010, A6.

Yes, absolutely, we need to help with earthquake relief efforts. The devastation is amazing and heart wrenching and the human cost will be, when all the bodies are found, stunningly high. But why wasn’t the poverty in Haiti important to us as a people, not as a government but as a people, before now? Because it wasn’t in our face and we have the capacity to ignore indefinitely what isn’t pushed in our face by some natural or man-made disaster?

Or is it because we do care but it’s damn hard to be really invested when you know (but can not prove), that the effect of your donation – because let’s be honest, most of us aren’t going to quit our jobs and go be relief workers anywhere: it takes a special class of person to do that – is going to be virtually nil because the system into which it’s going is designed to benefit the top 1% and the top 1% already have so much more than everyone else that your $10 isn’t even going to register?

Given as a country we’ve said that we will send Haitians who land in the U.S. directly back to Haiti, I don’t know what to think.

The only thing I do know is that our attitudes as Americans toward poverty, both in and out of our country, make my head hurt.


If you are moved by the devastation in Haiti and care about making an impact on poverty in areas not 60% populated by TV commentators, try giving to an organization like Doctors Without Borders (U.S. – Other locations) or Action Aid (U.S. – Other locations) which consistently work to reduce the effects of poverty around the globe.

It keeps everything from happening at once.

Only twelve days in and it’s already been an interesting year.

I had a job interview last Friday with a firm that has been head hunting me for over a year. They’re a good company, a vendor that provides an essential web-based application to the organization I work for now. Smart people, progressive, both in the small and large sense, who understand that it’s what you produce not what you wear while you’re producing it that matters. They recognize the benefits of keeping their employees happy. In a lot of ways, they embody the best of the mentality that came out of the dot com era: work hard, play hard, try to remember you have a life outside the office.

My interview was at 9am and I was told to allow for an hour. It took two. I find that the interview that runs over because you ended up talking longer is a good sign; generally if they don’t like you they’ve made up their mind in the first 20 minutes or so. We talked about my philosophy of tech support – communicate, communicate, communicate – and about side projects I might be interested in doing – um, yes, the HTML code that your application puts out is unstylable because it’s not standards compliant and even unrelated elements are classed – and about which comic book or cartoon character, past or present, I would choose to be if I could choose one (yeah, it’s that kinda place). And we talked about salary, which is the place I thought it would all go to hell. They were fine with my floor, and fine with my preferred starting point for negotiations which is $5,000 a year above my floor.

I would say it went well given that in the time it took me to leave their offices, get the subway, ride one stop, and walk to my office they made me a formal offer that included a week’s more vacation than I get at my current job, 6 more administrative days off (aka: public holidays) than I get now, and $5,000 more a year than my current stated salary. The only catch was the level of support they expected me to provide to my clients.

The job would have been supporting 10 or 12 of their biggest clients, and it would have required me to be “on call” until midnight every night. That would have meant not only would I have to actually see midnight every night – seriously, that 9:30 bed time I railed against in high school…little did I know that it was my mid-life future – it would have required me to take on the additional expense of an actual cell phone plan rather than the pay-as-you-go personal pay phone I carry around now.

The expense wouldn’t have been a problem. It was the time.

I am a little OCD about my job. It’s the way my mind works about any problem, really: take the problem in, throw it into the processing unit to be worked on in the background, and eventually find a solution based on the stated parameters – you can see this process at work every week if you watch House; when he has his revelatory moment during which he solves the case after all their floundering you’re seeing the end point of this type of problem solving. And because I am a little OCD about my job, I’ve spent the last five years very consciously drawing a line between work time and home time with clear markers (that’s why when I do work at home I actually get completely dressed rather than wearing my jammies; dressed means work time).

Being “on call” would mean that I could never relax, that I would always be alert for the phone ringing, always waiting for someone to throw a hand grenade at me so I could respond to it. And while I can do combat readiness, it’s no way to live daily if not absolutely necessary.

To put it more bluntly: the idea that a client could call me at any time of the day or night actually gave me a rash while I was thinking about it. Literally, big red splotches on my chest and neck.

So instead of doing what seems even in fourth or fifth thoughts like the smart thing and taking the job – more money, better holidays, stable company – I declined the offer to stay at the creaky, robbing Peter to pay Paul, Christ, I didn’t mail my paycheck until Monday I hope it clears, what do you mean we get MLK day off and not another holiday until the end of May? non-profit because even with the shitty holidays it does give on a daily basis me more of the only thing you ever really run out of.

But what did you really mean?

In retrospect, I probably should have stayed with print journalism. A strange thing to say, I know, given the number of articles about the death of print media, the number of layoffs surviving newspapers have done in the past six months, and the number of newspapers that have gone online only. Still, I think sticking with it would have benefited me in the long run.

I wrote exactly one article for my high school newspaper. Published in the issue we did on the 20th anniversary of JFK‘s assassination, I remember it distinctly mostly because I hated writing it. The subject was merit pay – a proposed system wherein a teacher’s pay would be based not on seniority but on how well that teacher’s students performed (usually on standardized tests) – and how our county school board’s proposal was being received by the teaching staff.

Even though the system wasn’t supposed to go into effect for another 5 to 7 years, teachers in the county were already talking about something called “work to the rule” where they would work the hours they were scheduled and no more. “Work to the rule” would have had a negative impact on after school clubs and activities, and it also would have made teachers unavailable for providing additional help to students whose grades were marginal or who were floundering. In the go-go 1980s when your application to college could be made or broken based on how many extracurricular activities in which you had participated, the student body had a vested interest in keeping those clubs and application padding activities flourishing. Me, I really didn’t give a shit. Yet, there I was, an eager freshman who had to produce 400 words on the merit pay system, teachers’ reactions, and how it might impact the student body, and all with no trace of bias. Yes, this was back in the days when we still believed in such a thing as “objective reporting.”

It wasn’t that the subject held no interest for me, and that it was quite possible that I would get assigned other equally boring topics, that really turned me off the whole student journalist thing. What really soured the whole thing was that I couldn’t just write the objective article using sources, like school board and teacher’s union press releases, and previously published accounts. No, I had to actually go out and talk with people (read: teachers and other students) to find out what they thought. More importantly, I had to talk with them in a way that encouraged them to tell me what they actually thought rather than what they thought would sound best or what they thought I wanted to hear.

People don’t say what they mean, not usually anyway. And it’s like pulling teeth to get them to be direct about anything. We talk around things. We talk in metaphors. We use body language, something that isn’t especially useful or easy to portray on the printed page, to convey meaning and hope against hope that the other person somehow gets what we’re trying to say.

Not only do we not say what we mean, we very often don’t say what we want. Happily we’ll defer to another person’s decision making only to spend the evening seething because no, really, you didn’t want to see Twilight: New Moon but you did say you didn’t care so…there you are trying to resist the urge to scream at the screen because Bella is such a dishrag.

We obfuscate, particularly when we feel the emotional stakes are high. We dodge. We shift. We tell half-truths. We bury the important stuff in the middle of other stuff that isn’t important and hope no one notices it. Sometimes, we even use a sneaky little technique where we actually answer the question we were asked no the question the person doing the asking actually meant to ask. In short, getting the truth out of most people is more than a bit like mining: lots of digging with very little yield.

It’s because of this, and because 80% of the time I am no better in my interpersonal communications, that I think sticking with print journalism could have helped me. Being required to talk with people I don’t know, people who don’t necessarily trust me, would have forced me to develop better listening skills, and better question asking skills. It would have forced me to pay attention to what people don’t say as much as what they say rather than treating them as if they were behaving the way I want them to behave (that is: saying what they actually mean).

I know it certainly would have improved my ability to write good dialogue. That in and of itself would have made the slog through journalism school worth it.

I’m not saying I think radical honesty would make life easier. But I do think that life would certainly improve if we all just said what we meant.

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